Update on the kids – both kinds

We are advertising the wether kids (castrated bucks) this week in the local papers. I keep procrastinating because none of us can really picture someone coming and taking them away. Silly to think we could all get so attached to goats but boy are we!

The kids got their CDT shots a couple weeks ago. We give most routine vaccinations etc ourselves. This time Alannah helped.  For background we officially dropped 4H this spring. It was too much to meet those deadlines and requirements as well as do co-op and piano and our regular routine. Also we made a decision not to show the goats due to the possibility of contracting disease.  Goats can pass CAE – a type of uncurable arthritis that can be passed through the milk. They can also pick up all sorts of miscellaneous illnesses at shows so routine use of antibiotics after showing is necessary.  We felt this was stressful on the goats and was an unacceptable risk considering all the people who drink this milk. However we still want our children to get the full experience of animal husbandry and learn the types of things they would have covered in 4H. So this time Alannah jumped in.  After assisting with three of the goats she gave the last shot. We were so proud of her! She wrote narrated the procedure and defined the three types of injections that can be given here:Injections_narration_1

She may have won the debate over computer vs handwritten narrations however : o   Penmanship isnt our strong suit! 

Flew the coop

They are so outta here!  The first set of chicks has moved out of their brooder into a protected section of the regular chicken coop. After two close calls retrieving the tom cat from the coop they seem to be doing well. 100_2078

The last little chick seems to have identity confusion.  She mistakenly thinks she is a parakeet.  Whomever told me chickens don’t fly has not seen ours!  They routinely roost on the barn rafters and this one is following suit. Before we put the mesh over her brooder we were finding her in places like this:

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She is contained now but I am hoping they will all be able to be housed together before too long. 

I found the girls surfing the hatchery site trying to match up pics of the chicks to identify their breeds.  (We still dont know who laid them all)  I pointed out that they likely wouldn’t find a perfect match because we literally "made" these breeds by crossing the Spangled rooster with these various breeds of hens. So this is science in the making. <g>

Scrapbooks and Schoolbooks (and random thoughts about productivity)

M_i_am_from_2 The Where I am from poems had scrapbook potential all over them. It’s been way way too long since I sat and scrapped.  Far too long.  Scrapbooking used to be my defining hobby.  The *what I do* after being mom and farmer. Something about the combination of mom, farmer, and digital photography (vs. prints in my hand every week) pushed scrapping to the back burner since Brendan was born. That was a real shame. I missed it. So this week when my daughters wrote their own ‘I am From’ poems we sorted through the stash of papers and started to put pages together and it felt SO good!

I realized my scrapbooking has suffered from the same second-guessing my homeschooling has endured. In my guilt over productivity I look at our elaborate hand-made pages and think how impractical they really are. They take so much time and thought and coordination. What about Creative Memories old motto – better to have finished albums than creativity? Well I bought into that idea in both areas of my life at different times.  It IS tempting to question yourself when you see volumes of others’ finished pages. Still, the prospect of churning out mass produced pages like so many cookie cutters left me cold.  Cold enough that I just couldn’t do it at all if that was the way it was to be done.

Alannah_i_am_from_page Sitting at the table this week carefully matching up patterns and fonts, ribbons and tags reminded me how deeply satisfying the process itself is.  This isn’t about numbers. She who dies with the most pages does not win. : )  Rather, it is about putting yourself on the page, telling a story, and then illustrating it with lovely images.  I think, in the end, education is that for us also.  It is not about producing volumes of student work, but about touching their hearts. It is about inspiring them and about asking them to put care and forethought and passion into their work. It is not about checking off squares or being “done”. 

I guess my scrapbooks will never be “done” and with any luck at all neither will our educations. What I hope for instead is that they will nurture that drive to reflect, to create, and to express and not allow it to be crushed by quotas.  Education too is about the process.

Here is the text of Moira’s poem:

I am from…

The large yellow house with the old gray barn

Sweet baby goats, annoying chickens, and kittens fed with an eyedropper

A black Shetland pony that only I can ride

Planting gardens, doing math, and writing narrations

Keeping notebooks, drawing faces, and playing dolls

Cute babies who try to talk and play with toys too big for them

…whom I push around in the stroller or the wheelbarrow

The Buddy System

A purple room that my sister and I share

Big brothers who like music and basketball

A mom who milks goats and helps us with craft projects,

A dad who gets the guitar and sings songs even though he doesn’t know how to play

…who drives us around in the tractor,

Piano lessons on Wednesdays

A church full of friends and ladies who wear veils

I come from fun!

And Alannah’s:

I am from…

            Small yards in crowded base neighborhoods with kids everywhere

            

Long drives to new houses

            

            Green Virginia fields and yellow buffalo grass prairies

            Sadness at the airport, worry about Dad’s safety, relief at retirement

            Tractor rides and silly songs with Dad

            Waking up early, goats with full udders, hatching chicks, and crowing roosters

Wheechairs rolling down the halls, basketballs on hardwood floors, and the piano playing all day

Cutting out paper dolls, crocheting on the couch, and riding double

Little brothers, sword fights, and stick armies

Always a baby in the house, never in cribs

Watching the yellow school bus drive by while I sprout seeds, multiply fractions and read in the kitchen

Learning at my own pace

Working with our hands, read alouds, and family movie nights

Rock concert masses and soft Gregorian chant

The Rosary

Where I am From

Amy’s blog http://amyable.blogspirit.com/archive/2006/06/11/where-i-m-from.html  turned me on to the poetry contest Joy in the Morning is sponsoring:

http://joyinthemorning.clubmom.com/joy_in_the_morning/2006/06/writing_contest.html

It is based on George Ella Lyon’s poem here: http://www.carts.org/staff_poem2.html I am no poet but reading about where my friends are "from" got me thinking this week.  If you have done one of these do share your links with me!  I love reading about other women’s history. Here is my stab at it:

Where I am From

I am from snow covered and slippery in winter and zucchini laden and mosquito bitten in summer,

From saddle soap, braided manes, and counting steps til the jump,

From ‘Bless us O Lord’, homemade pickles, pie for every holiday, and the thrill of drop-in guests who linger around Grandma’s table,

From babies in hand-knit layettes with oiled hair,

From polkas at weddings and When Irish Eyes Are Smiling and old Aunties in cat’s eye glasses,

From ‘cleanliness is next to Godliness’, washing windows, and ironing everything that doesn’t move,

From Betty Crocker, Franco-American, cream soup based hot dishes, and Kool-aid,

From watching smoke swirls from pipe tobacco and

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cigarettes and ashtrays in every size, shape and color,

And hence – from bronchitis every winter and painful ears resting on wool scarves placed over hot water bottles; from pink penicillin and oxygen ‘tents’,

From antique sales, found treasures, and Country Living subscriptions in the heart of the city.

From Beach Boys at the State Fair and the kiddie menu at Perkins,

From latchkey kid and nightmares and afraid of the dark,

From beloved nuns in long black habits with Kleenex in their sleeves to guitar masses and always being a ‘reader’,

From Scholastic book orders, the free lunch program, and posters of Sean Cassidy,

From Gloria Vanderbilt, Zena jeans, turned up collars, GunnySax dresses, and new Bass shoes in August,

From CW Anderson, Cover to Cover on PBS, and Judy Blume books,

From ‘don’t believe everything you hear’, ‘you can find anything in a book’, and ‘question authority’,

From AFS t-shirts, Dutch dictionaries, and homesickness,

From pompon routines and Friday night videos on cable and Prince records played over and over,

From head over heels and waiting by the phone to twenty years of following the love of my life around the world,

From seeking the truth to finding the Truth,

From this is only temporary to this is home.

A few of my favorite people : )

You meet some of the most incredible women online! And if you’re lucky you get to meet them in person too.  I ran into Michelle Quigley http://www.family-centered.com/  in Denver this month and was able to have a lovely dinner with her. I also have one of her planners in my hands now. Wow!  These are truly beautiful and I am excited about putting it to work this school year. I needed the bigger spaces to write in. My little bk isn’t doing the job.  And now I will have these inspiring illustrations to boot!

Dani and I have been on the same little Catholic homeschool email list for a lot of years now. She is mom to four boys who have somehow gotten WAY too big. She is an incredible digital artist. You can ck out her work here: http://www.dani3d.com/blog/

Rebecca is new online friend who shares my passion for gentle parenting.  In fact, she has devoted a whole blog just to the littlest people and those who love them.  Check it out!   http://www.agypsycaravan.typepad.com/babylove/ 

Gotta get started with school so my list will have to pause for now.  I hope to get my links updated shortly!

Geography Copybooks

Geo_booksTo workbook or not to workbook?  That is the question many homeschoolers ask themselves every summer when purchasing curriculum. Truth is, workbooks are faster – faster for the kids and faster for the teacher. And they are cheap. Unless you are multiplying the cost of said workbook by four or more students and twice as many subjects. We had to seriously consider the wisdom of investing in consumable curriculum when we have so many students in our one-room school.  Not only did it seem like a poor use of money that could be spent on music lessons and riding gear, but we also wondered how much of all that quickly gained information was staying in their heads.  After all, how memorable were the workbooks from your childhood? 

All that consideration landed us with no geography workbooks this year. That was fine but it didn’t leave me with any more free time or brain cells to devise a ‘bells and whistles’ geography program either.  Nor do I have a great track record with non-consumable programs that have phone book sized manuals. Enter Charlotte Mason, Maria Montessori, and notebooking. These have been the mainstay of our homeschool program for many years and I thought I would share how we have been handling geography.

Some things go without saying.  For instance, whenever we read a book, watch a compelling movie, Dad goes on a trip, etc. we check the map and compare here to there. They draw maps of the places they study in history.  We occasionally do full country unit studies, complete with costumed dinners and related art projects. Occasionally. <g>  Some of those end up being lapbooked. (see photo albums)

For the more bits and pieces, everyday type of work we are adding pages to their notebooks of landforms and geographical vocabulary from the resources pictured. Maria Montessori is famous for her emphasis on nomenclature, a large word which essentially means naming a thing completely. Geographical nomenclature in Montessori schools begins with landforms. The children use cards such as the ones you can download from http://montessorimaterials.org/geo.htm#lan  They also make models of the landforms like these: http://www.montessoritraining.net/preschool_kindergarten/courses/culture_science/sample_lessons.htm

Geo_pageOne of my favorite books to introduce the landforms is Geography From A to Z. (I will upload it to the sidebar so you can ck it out) Each page has full color illustrations that are easily reproduced by children armed with markers or colored pencils. They read the entry and then fill out a portfolio page I set up in Word. Download portfolio_text_box_9.doc   I am uploading it here if it saves anyone time. They write the name of the form on the top, draw their version of the book entry in the large center box, and then a short definition in the lower box.  Done!

We use the Montessori cards to drill the vocabulary for retention. You can modify the cards by using sandpaper for the landform itself.  The landforms models can be made a few ways.  One easy option is to buy the new disposable Ziplock plastic storage containers. They are sold near the baggies. A low wide size is best and you will want all the forms to be made from the same type of container. They can use modeling clay (not Playdough) to press a form into the bottom of the container and then can fill it with blue colored water. You can outline the form in permanent marker on the bottom of the container if you like. To make a permanent form you can use the self drying clay or plaster or the like. We haven’t gotten around to that honestly.

087156430001For cultural studies we usually get a library book every month on a different country. Something simple like the Postcards From… series or whatever happens to be at the bookmobile. A favorite book of mine is Material World. Sixteen photojournalists travelled the world and chose one family to represent each nation. The families are pictured with all their earthly possessions in front of their homes. This makes a striking impression, particularly when you contrast a third world family with their pots, blankets, and baskets with a Western family who must be photographed from a distance so that all their belongings can fit into the screen of the camera.

For older children who have exhausted these resources I like Scholastic’s All the Geography Homework You Will Ever Need.  I remember reading years ago that instead of investing in repetitious curricula for each grade level it was wiser to buy a composite type reference book and use it year after year.  This would be that type of book. You can make notebook pages from the entries in here such as the three types of maps (political, physical, cultural) or cover things like biomes, migration patterns, or the atmosphere. It is an AWESOME resource for lapbooks also. Library books will flesh out the topics.

Better scoot here because my family will be home from their movie shortly!   

Smile – a photo blog entry

I don’t have a lot of words today. It’s been a long week and we are all tapped out around here. I thought instead I would share with you some of the things that made me smile this week.

Asher_16Sixteen Candles      Asher turned sixteen this week.  I can hardly believe it. Guess I say that every birthday. My mind rushes back to Dayton, Ohio. It was a long painful labor and I would physically completely break down for the next two years. But this was one sweet baby. Through it all he was my reason to keep trying to get better. Now he is thoughtful young man, devoted to his music and literature. He still has this happy-go-lucky nature and makes everyone around him smile. His name means ‘happy and blessed’ and we feel we have been both since the day we got him! Happy birthday sweetie!

Feet_2 My Left Foot  This is one of those silly pics that moms out there have to be able to appreciate. Kieran came running in wanting his shoes on so he could catch up to everyone. He asked if he had them set up right and I said, no, you have the wrong feet. You need to switch the feet. So…… he did <g>

Weeds_1The Grass Really IS Greener over the Septic Tank hence we are taking the goats over to feast for a little bit everyday.  You can see how big the doe kids are getting.

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3_little_kittens_1Three Little Kittens

This pic is blurry because the kittens wouldn’t hold still and I can’t tell you how much THAT makes me smile this week. They are transitioning well to the goat’s milk and cat food.  Or so we thought. One morning this week we awakened to find the little guy on the right barely moving nor able to even hold his head up. We figured he was not long for this world. We filled him up with the eye dropper and then had to go fix the fence because the neighbor’s horse had jumped it. by the time we finished and got back to him he was alert and walking if wobbly. He seems fine now after a day of dropper feeding.  Apparently they aren’t quite able to sustain themselves from the bowl just yet.

GopherNature Notebk  the girls were observant enough to notice this tiny gopher in his hole.  I wasn’t sure if the camera would catch him, but here he is.  These little buggers dot the Colorado countryside in summertime. Frankly we don’t always find them adorable – like when they are burrowing through the pasture.  I couldn’t resist that little face though. Something about little live things that always get to me.

WaterEnough Said …some pictures say it all. Water. It’s a wonderful thing. We don’t have all the kinks worked out yet but for now it’s on. What a blessing. We are so abundantly blessed in this age we often don’t even stop to realize it until something we take for granted is no longer there. However, running water is something Our Lord and most of His children have done without for most of time.  We are so fortunate!

K_weeds_4Smile …a ‘just because I am a camera happy mom’ picture.  This shot of Kieran in the grass just makes smile. A lot. <g>  Hope you all had a great week!  God bless : )

Real Life

We are almost all packed up for our night at the hotel. We have talked about a night out for many months. In our ideal plan, however, it was a romantic escape involving my husband and I instead of a whole family trek to rented rooms on base for showers and laundry.  As it turns out the pump we replaced in the well pit was defective and we woke up to no water on Saturday. While we thought we had it fixed, it is now completely shot.  So, we have filled our stock barrel at a neighbor’s for the animals and will head into town shortly.

It’s funny because I have had several random thoughts the past couple weeks and this recent catastrophe solidified my hunch. A speaker I heard recently asserted that we must be "hard on ourselves and our children" in order to develop heroic virtue. Now I am as sold on heroic virtue as the next guy, but it seems to me our life provides more than enough opportunity to cultivate it without going out of our way to make things harder.

Some examples from just today – although Allen is more than willing to just pay someone to come do the work this time it is summer.  The well folks are booked several weeks out.  They gave us lots of constructive advice to run with and wished us well (no pun intended ; ) but noone is coming. At first I thought this was a farm "thing".  Then we discovered the only room open on base has a broken air conditioner. All this follows our dear mama cat’s mysterious death the other morning. She was awake nursing her babies when we began barn chores.  When we went back to her to get the hay she was lying there, gone already. A very hard morning for my girls. When it rains it pours. Let’s just say we have our figurative umbrellas open.

Someone said to me the other day that I must be a STRONG person. I would change the emphasis to read that I MUST be a strong person. We all must.  There is no easy button in life and in a family this size with a property this size the rewards are multiplied, and so are the sorrows. It is inevitable. How we respond is about all we get to decide some days. I have noticed that if I remain as kind and patient as I can muster then the tone is set and the children react in kind.  If I give in to the selfish impulse to answer them sharply, then they in turn become careless in their words to each other and before you know it we have hurt feelings and angry words compounding the problems at hand. I know this all too well since I have not consistently resisted the fatigue and frustration that accompany early pregnancy coupled with a few well placed disasters. But that is what apologies are for, right?

No, we definitely don’t live a charmed life in an ideal world.  But, we have something better – real life.  While it’s often lacking in creature comforts and little luxuries that would be delightful to have on days like these, it IS fully equipped with all the necessities to help us on our path to heaven should we choose to take advantage of them. Opportunities for heroic virtue just bustin’ at the seams. <g>

Meanwhile… back at the ranch

Hey all, it’s been quite a week and I haven’t been able to get to the computer for any length of time to do justice to a blog entry.  Still can’t really but wanted to check in and tell you all that we have been up to.

C_1 Here a Chick, There a Chick:  first of all the chicks.  We had a straggler. Several days after the second chick hatched we found a lone little yellow chick squawking and stumbling atop of the broken eggshells. We set her up in the chick condo with the other two, hoping they wouldn’t eat her. They pecked at her a few times but soon welcomed her. I didn’t write anything at first because she was sooo wobbly and struggled to stand rather unsuccessfully.  I wasn’t convinced she would make it through the first night. She did though and the three of them are doing well. Every week that goes by is a good sign.

Ouch  After our chick excitement we spent the day with friends riding the horses, swimming in their pool, and playing looong games of volleyball (them, not me ; )) We arrived home Sunday night exhausted but happy, got the horses and children unloaded, and settled in for the night.  Noticed that Zach was running late getting home from work.  This isn’t exactly breaking news since the boy is approaching 18, but being a mom I called his cell phone to track him down regardless. Turns out the boy slipped on the island thing at the gas pump and cut his head on his car door. He attempted to clean it up at the station’s bathroom and thought he had it under control – oh if I had a nickel for every time a teenager told me they "had it under control".  Sigh! He pulled in a few minutes later. I took one look at the cut, and the skull showing below it, and told him to go show his dad. I was holding the table lamp for better light while dh lifted the skin which put me right over the top. I dropped the lamp in a chorus of EEEEEEEEEW! and Yuuuuuck! (Ok so I am not great with blood) Ended up losing the rock paper scissors and got my keys to run him to the ER where the boy got 8 staples. It is uncanny the knack our children have for timing these crises – rarely when we are well-rested! It was an odd moment sitting there by the gurney though. Zach, in his neatly trimmed beard and designer shoes looking so much like a man now. Zach, asking the Dr how many stitches were needed and how much it was going to hurt, looking so much the little boy I remember. Time goes by way too fast.

Where’s Wally? That was the name of the game this past week. After taking a temporary leave of our collective senses Allen and I decided to take the plunge and try dog ownership oooooone more time. To our shame we have the world’s absolute worst track record with canines. Livestock is so very much easier!  However, we are also the world’s biggest push-overs and have shockingly short memory of misfortune.  So here we are again!

W1W2Our piano teacher  has several sweet Bearded Collies. They are cousin to the English Sheepdog. If you have seen the Shaggy Dog movie- that’s it. I have been intrigued by them each week we visit her but they were out of our reach $$ wise. Then a Beardie showed up at the pound. He then showed up at the piano teacher’s <g> and then…..he was in my van heading to the prairie.

Wm Reflecting his heritage, we gave him a proper Scottish name – Wallace – but he goes by Wally around here. He has been a remarkably gentle, mild mannered dog. No significant vices noted, unlike the rest of us. ; D  So where is Wally?  Well as the pics show he has been spotted monitoring bath time, helping in the garden, even riding in the trailer of the tractor – how I wish I had gotten that picture!! Most often though he is spotted sprawled on the couch, right in Allen’s spot. I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t seen it. Now I need to get cracking on those denim slipcovers…..

The Thrifty Homeschooler http://maureenwittmann.com/ came to rest a spell under the Starry Sky and we couldn’t be happier to see her. She is in Colorado to speak at the Denver Catholic Homeschool Conference this weekend. Maureen and I have known each other for over ten years now, though we are pretty consistently at the opposite sides of the country. So, it was a wonderful treat to have the Wittman ladies spend the night last night. The kids all stayed up way too late playing every card game they knew and talking over each other til they dropped. They were back at it this morning until they had to pack out for Denver. They are delightful all and if you get a chance to hear Maureen in person take advantage of it! If not, her Thrifty Homeschooler yahoo mailings will inspire you to stretch your dimes and make your purchases more purposely.

That about beings us to today.  Allen and I are heading to Denver with Colin who is speaking on the graduates panel tomorrow.  I still need to alter a still larger dress for the event since my midsection is expanding.  My center is outpacing my wardrobe ; )  I am 12 weeks today and will enter trimester two next week!  Woo hoo! One down, two to go! The morning sickness is subsiding and I am still able to do my own chores and run my errands. Given my history of bedrest and contractions I am enjoying every minute of that work. Speaking of which – the goats are calling!  So long for now.

Parenting – Art or Science?

I was talking with a dear old friend this week about her sister-in-law, who just gave birth to her first child. It was a complicated pregnancy followed by an elective c-section (she was told baby was *too big*). Now the little man is just two weeks old, a strapping, beautiful boy. Already his mother is on a determined quest for parenting data and methodology because it is apparent to her that he is manipulating his parents.  She believes they must limit rocking and holding, although it is important (within limits apparently), because it is ‘conditioning’ him to be unable to self-soothe. Instead she is convinced it is critical to carefully schedule cycles of sleeping, eating, playing with the precision of a train conductor or havoc will ensue. She was told you cannot spoil a baby – at least in the first three months (3 mo??) but she doesnt want to take any chances.

I was thinking about this conversation last night sitting in front of a giant model train set at Barnes and Noble with two of my little boys. We had just bought all of our garden plants and were waiting to meet Dad for dinner. It was date night and somehow *only* having two kids along now qualifies as a date for us lol! Anyway, there we sat, the boys moving Thomas around the tracks and I looking over the titles filling the shelves, remembering the books that filled my own shelves and warmed my heart when two little boys is all I had. Wondering also, what happened in the next couple decades that convinced new moms to run their homes like factories?

Shelf after shelf was lined with stern looking *nanny* faces (WHY are we taking advice from nannies and not nanna’s??) and titles that frequently included words like "problem" "disorder" and "solve".  How different from the books that inspired me as a brand spankin’ new mom. I remember Marguerite Kelly’s Mother’s Almanac, Laurel’s Kitchen, and The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding. I remember books like Whole Parent, Whole Child  and For The Children’s Sake which suggested that breastfeeding and mothering somehow make us more complete, not imposed upon. Authors like John Holt who urged us to trust our children’s drive to learn.

Parenting is fraught with challenges right from day one, especially if your baby, like our first, is beset with medical issues. Coming off a firm foundation laid by prenatal reads like Gentle Birth Choices and Birth Without Fear I was unwavering in my certainty that mothering, too, was a natural process.  It has been around as long as their have been people after all. ; )  If simple, tribal people could thrive surely we could.

We were told to hold the baby, wear the baby in fact. We were told that contrary to spoiling his chances at self-soothing that it would improve his brain function to process images while moving with our steps. If mom was tired or sick she was advised to tuck the baby into bed with her and nurse and rest, not insist baby cry himself to sleep so as not to overtax her. We were encouraged to read to babies and sing to them and to keep baby very close by to stimulate their development. It was an all-absorbing challenge – one that I have thoroughly enjoyed for a lot of years now.

Not sure where I am going with all this.  These are the same random thoughts that have been occupying me all week. I have battled with self doubt at times over the years over my complete inability to run our home with institutional perfection. I am schedule challenged. I have never owned a wrist watch. We now have children who will NOT allow a baby to cry and will offer to walk them if an adult is not readily available to do so. Our babies have been *worn* by mom and dad and big brother and sisters. They have required more time in the first two years than Baby Trainer babies.  What we have come to see though is that they require way LESS time after age two. They sleep well, play independently and are generally delightful despite the absence of scientific parenting.  In fact, one might argue, "because" of that absence.

Some might view us as reactionary, but I prefer to see it as responsive instead. One thing I am sure of is that, much as we would like to believe it, there is nothing predictable about children or life with them.  That can totally blindside you if you are beholden to the perfect schedule and find yourself tangled up in the inevitable skinned knees, burnt toast, sick dog, hurt feelings,lost socks, wakeful baby type of things that typically fill our days. This is not to say chaos is a given. Routine is comforting all around. We shoot for that. But grace is found in self-emptying and in dying to self. It is in that kind of giving completely that we somehow find ourselves richer and more full than we could ever have imagined.

My wish for new mom’s is that you are carried away with this wonderful vision.  That you trust yourself and trust your baby. That you remember to always have fun. : )  I am still having fun.  I am pretty sure my close friends and companions along the way are also.  Far from being exhausted by the tasks at hand we are looking more at the end of this new baby journey than the beginning and that brings more tears than you can imagine. Don’t waste a minute of this precious time focusing on the problems. Pics_062