
For Today…
Outside my window… It is very early morning. The sun rose red and flaming over the eastern horizon.
I am thinking… about my grandmother, about dying, about living, about goodbyes, and about being brave when one does not feel the least bit that. My beloved Gram, a constant devoted support of mine all my life, entered hospice last week and was not expected to survive the week. She has double pneumonia and is in heart failure and no more intervention is going to happen. So now we wait. My heart leaps to my throat whenever the phone rings. It will not be long but hopefully long enough for my heart to make some sort of peace with it.
The Stations of the Cross have become a favorite devotion of mine. My absolute preference is for the version in Father Lasance's missal but you can find another very good version here.
We were fortunate to be able to pray together at San Luis which is known for its outdoor, life sized, stations of the cross. The bronze sculptures scale the side of the mountain leading to the mission chapel at the top. Not to be missed.
"He will bear their iniquities.."
"I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth." Is 42:16
"It is Thy love, more than the fear of hell, which causes me to weep for my sins." -Stations of the Cross
"Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear." Is 58:8

"My Jesus, I love Thee more than myself; I repent of having offended
Thee. Never permit me to offend Thee again. Grant that I may love Thee always;
and then do with me what Thou wilt." – Stations of the Cross
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note: this was begun yesterday but not posted. Seems there is no time for blogging these days
I am thankful for…. the above : ) No matter how clingy she is this month, we have seen enough babies become toddlers to know that this is shortlived and grieved over when gone. All she has to do is flash that smile and we're good.
play-do was such a big hit in the camper it moved into the house for several days of little people fun:
I am pondering…
Father gave a similar homily about humility and how we 'esteem' ourselves based on Luke 14:10. The whole taking the last seat thing. Makes me think alot about our era of selfpromotion and how that factors in. When is that appropriate and when is it not? Is it ever?
This week's news announced the death of Mary Travers, the "Mary" of Peter, Paul, and Mary. The articles focused on her role as social activist but it wasn't 60's politics that came to mind when I heard the news. No, Mary Travers who shared the signature hairstyle of Peggy OMara of Mothering magazine was, for me, less about Vietnam etc and more about Puff the Magic Dragon and all the hours of Peter, Paul, and Mommy the boys and I logged in our minivan many years ago. They are probably among the few of their friends who can sing We're Goin' to the Zoo (zoo, zoooo, how about you, you, youuuuu?) and Blowin in the Wind. Hours and hours we spent with that cassette tape unwinding while we laughed over boa constrictors and make believe towns and drove through the Ohio countryside. More hours spent watching PBS concerts.
Outside my window… misty moisty morning (see bottom)
I am wearing…out of workout clothes and into button down jean skirt, blue striped short sleeved cotton sweater, sandals. In need of a hair cut I think.
I am creating… a photography project which has my creative juices flowing. It is good to make lovely things. Pictures come more easily than words these days. Creating pockets of silence is also beautiful.
I am going…to meet the contractor to finish paperwork, send off some school paperwork, clean the van.
I am reading…Love, Joy, and Peace by Fr Andre Prevot. It's a short book but a slow read as I chew on it all. Also picked up Asher's latest, Columbine by Dave Cullen. Faster read. Disturbing.
I am praying… for a son, for a kindred spirit I recently 'met' through the blog, for a dear friend, for a private intention
On my mind…grace and that whole 'having eyes that do not see and ears that do not hear' phenomenon. Faith is a gift, but not one we can give. Only He gives. I wish it was not so.
From the learning rooms… If last year won the strongest finish award, this fall wins the strongest start. The kids are in a great rhythm with their curriculum and rising to the challenge of studying and memorizing etc. The littles are enjoying circle time. B-I-N-G-O is a big hit <g>
One of my favorite things~Italian pottery, which looks remarkably similar to Mexican pottery, and makes me smile every time I pass it. Must get a picture.
A few plans for the rest of the week: we are going to cake class, I am going to give Moira a haircut, and am continuing to hit the treadmill in the mornings. And yes Allen, I am going to turn the treadmill on too. Go, me. : )
From my picture journal…
"We should not wish for anything but what comes to us from moment to moment exercising ourselves none the less for good. For he who would not thus exercise himself, and await what God sends, would tempt God.
When we have done what good we can, let us accept all that happens to us by Our Lord's ordinance, and let us unite ourselves to it by our will.
Who tastes what it is to rest in union with God will seem to himself to have won to Paradise even in this life."
- St Catherine of Genoa
September is only half through but already has been full of travel and adventures in semi-homemade curriculum. School has started and while it keeps us quite busy it has been absolutely satisfying in every way. Could not be happier with it. : ) When not cracking the books we have been out in the big, big world:
The week got away from me. Ended up being filled to the brim. I wanted to share some of the fun places I have visited. But I didn't. I wanted to share the fun things we did in school. Too busy doing them. : ) Then came taping piano festival auditions and Dr. putting one daughter on an allergy diet and now its the weekend. Almost. The weekend is full of promise. Will catch up on the flip side.