The morning star of flowers

 

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Lone flower, hemmed in with snows, and white as they

But hardier far, once more I see thee bend

 Thy forehead as if fearful to offend,

 Like an unbidden guest. Though day by day

 Storms, sallying from the mountain-tops, waylay

 The rising sun, and on the plains descend;

 Yet art thou welcome, welcome as a friend

 Whose zeal outruns his promise! Blue-eyed May

Shall soon behold this border thickly set

With bright jonquils, their odours lavishing

 On the soft west-wind and its frolic peers;

 Nor will I then thy modest grace forget,

 Chaste snowdrop, venturous harbinger of Spring,

 And pensive monitor of fleeting years!

– Wordsworth


black-nosed sheep

 

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Thousands of sheep, soft-footed, black-nosed sheep — one by one going up the hill and over the fence — one by one four-footed pattering up and over— one by one wiggling their stub tails as they take the short jump and go over — one by one silently unless for the multitudinous drumming of their hoofs as they move on and go over — thousands and thousands of them in the grey haze of evening just after sundown — one by one slanting in a long line to pass over the hill…

– Carl Sandberg

The meadows of the Ickworth Estate boasted such soft footed, black nosed sheep at every bend in the road.  They never fail to stir up great affection within me. My Gram had a small heard of Suffolk sheep, six I believe.  At least in the beginning. (I inherited her tendency to multiply projects.)  I remember she took a night course at the local extension office. She bought the sheep, bred them. Soon there were twenty, then fifty.  I think there were several dozen by the time my grandfather was overwhelmed and the sheep project came to a close.  

We learned a lot in the interim however. All those biblical analogies take on new meaning after watching a sheep's unique response to challenges (to give up, by and large), towards pack mentality, and the tendency to flee.  Yet, we loved them she and I. In later years she framed a watercolor of a young woman in a nightgown with a winter coat tending a needy sheep in a snowy pen because it reminded her of those late night emergencies that would so often crop up.  

In the late 70's, while we chased those sheep through hill and dale, I certainly never expected to see a herd while standing in Suffolk itself. It is a singular blessing. I know it would make her smile. 

 

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and yes this sky is from the same hike.  It was a brief clearing!

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with this ring

 

 

We are now card carrying members of the National Trust which makes me ever so happy because now I can wander through the gardens and manor houses of 300 historic British estates. The first on the list was Ickworth where we stumbled upon the most elegant wedding party this past weekend.  This may have set the bar rather high for our daughters I think.  Not that they are even dating, mind you.  This was the sort of scene that plants all sorts of romantic ideas into a girl's head though.  So classically British, it was like a fairy tale. 

I am so looking forward to the weekends now. You know where you'll find me. : ) 

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hugs and kisses

 

It's love week here.  : ) 

Are you doing silly happy things for Valentine's too? 

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These are a sugar cookie base, versus a peanut butter dough, mixed up by Moira with a kiss plunked down on each by a very happy four year old.   Someday some of them will arrive in America for their brothers.  I was not kidding when I said my boxes run late….

And now, I am off to get back to my Grammy's.  Delayed broadcast and all, but awesome. 

Much love - 

and kisses  

button, button, who’s got the button?

 

We had a sort of slow rolling week productivity wise so I did the logical thing and picked a really tediously slow project to work on. : )  Due to my procrastination – and the fact that I have not tracked down the thread since we unpacked – we had accumulated 5 buttons that had fallen off various coats. Seemed like a good opportunity to teach everyone who couldn't how to sew on a button, starting with how to thread a needle.  This part took a loooooong time.  

  I did my best Jessica Hulcy impression and let them figure it out themselves with a minimum of grabbing away of needles, thread, or buttons. This, by the way, is the most important job of the home educator says Mrs. Hulcy.  She used to say that if she could give parents two things it would be a gag and handcuffs.  We jump in too early and too much.  We talk alot – explaining and correcting and offering tips ad nauseum.   She was right.  Standing by, quietly answering questions as needed, and allowing the time to work through tricky things is better than all the lengthy lessons we can offer.  They may forget what we say, but they remember what they figured out. You can't learn for anyone, after all. 

So, our coats are all in tip top shape now.  They know something they didn't. 

win – win

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Tintwhistle

 

Rolls right off the tongue doesn't it?

Tintwhistle. 

I love words.  Have I mentioned that? 

Our cranky GPS rarely takes us to or from a place the same way twice.  Keeps things fresh, know what I mean? So while we went to Manchester by major highway, we returned along a rural road through some rugged high country dotted with little hamlets like this one near Derbyshire.  I really wanted to stop and get some shots in this one because this one had sheep. 

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Like many European country villages there was one main thoroughfare and I couldn't tell if the side streets were wide enough or two way etc until it was too late to turn down them.  This really exasperated one son who shall remain nameless, but you can boo at him here just the same. ; )  I may or may not have passed up an additional dozen or two farm drives because it was impossible to tell if the drives were truly drives or closed gates.  Hence we traveled a couple miles out of town before I had a big ol' public drive to turn around in and head back to those sheep.  I am nothing if not cautious. (…worry wart, overthinker, scaredy-cat, whatever <g>)

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We parked on a wayside initially and Alannah and I walked a quarter mile back to the pasture we saw them at the first pass by. They were no longer by the road however.  They had ambled alllllll the way up the hillside. Contrary to what that son might tell you, I wasn't gone that long turning around.  They made good time moving uphill though.  So after some grumbling between us we hightailed it back to the vehicle and into town.  

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Green for January, yes?

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I want photography points for actually scaling the back of the little cemetary wall for this one:

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The little town was classic, sort of post industrial, though some old buildings date back to the 1600's. Just what I would have pictured. We walked for a bit and then headed off.  Most of the passengers fell fast asleep but, my adventures in U-turning now forgotten,  son and I enjoyed some very Colorado-esque views from the top of whatever wild barren hill we were on.  

 

holding on

 

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Today was not the most wonderful day ever. 

It started with me NOT resisting the urge to crawl back into bed after seeing my husband and daughter off to be truthful. That didn't last long because dogs and small girls found me in short order. And husband soon wrote home to tell me one of our classmates from our tiny town's high school died suddenly. You can be gone from a town of a few thousand people (total, including outlying areas) a really long time and be right back in high school when something like happens. 

Shortly after that the phone rang.  The insurance company is totalling the car that was hit last week. We have to sort out the details and find another now.  Just remembering that night still gives me the willies and I still shudder a bit passing semi's on the road. Ugh.  

 I rallied after lunch though. The littles have been enjoying school lessons. Tess is reading everything she can get her hands on.  They are all doing an awesome job with their bible memory verses.  We are settling into a Waldorf-y rhythm whereby lots of just living is happening and learning is fitting into that context.  I may be rebelling and consciously slowing and focusing since Alannah began her job.  She is working at a child care center and rotating through the preschool room this week.  After absolutely loving the baby rooms she is struggling in this room.  

You should be advised that attachment parenting can render your offspring unsuitable for certain lines of work. Turns out she doesn't yell well. Not loudly and not enough, to be precise.  But she has been assured that it is ok.  If she stays longer, she will "find her preschool voice."  (ie a louder more irritated one)  As it is, she is "too nice to them."  She has a bad habit of allowing 'them' to hold her hand while they walk or of stooping to assist in shoe tying.  

This is against the rules.  This breaks my heart. 

For this reason I suspect she will find herself back in the baby room where they still value soft voices and a certain amount of soothing.  Not an excessive amount mind you. It has all prompted many discussions at home about why we do what we do and how effective the different approaches are respectively.  I shared this article with her by way of contrast with her experience. Just to show what could be, even in a large group. 

It is not always sunshine and roses over here, fwiw. I have been known to nearly pull my hair out over teenaged boys and the fog they seem to wade through at times, or chore chart boxes that stare blankly back at me hour after hour.  But we rally.  There are hugs and books and deep breaths and quiet voices prevail once more. 

I don't often feel like a phenomenal success. And losses like we have seen this past year make you wonder what sort of legacy you are leaving should you be next.  I read the accounts of Zelie Martin's children describing their sainted parents and sigh.  We aren't always that. Then again, we have also raised children who grew up to hold little hands and rock babies and coach troubled kids and read books and speak softly. (mostly ; ))

 Not small potatoes. 

I am holding on to that tonight. And tomorrow, we will read some more.  I will help tie shoes. We will look for a new car and be ever so glad we walked away from the other in one piece. We will bake for the big brothers' Valentine's box.  (which will be late again – a hallmark of their mother's care packages)  We will not worry about spoiling anyone.  In fact I think we will try hard to spoil as many people as we can.   And heck with it.  If they don't hear me upstairs when I call about those bleepin' chore charts, so be it.  I will go get them.  Again.  Because in a world where tomorrow is not guaranteed I do not want to be remembered for "having found my voice."  Not that voice anyway. Not that.