Fall Daybook – strength and inspiration

Outside my window:

Fog most mornings, as is common to autumn in Germany.  I watch the sun rise most mornings since it is getting later and later.

sunrise door
horses
From the kitchen:

Amish Friendship Bread.  Friends gave Alannah some starter several weeks ago and she made her loaves up this weekend. It multiplies.  Trying to think of ways to rehome starter ; ) 

Thinking about these words:

 "In our big, active family, it seems there’s a major or minor crisis about every thirty minutes, but most…  get resolved according to our most frequent advice: wait a minute; it’ll pass."

– Jim Bob Duggar, A Love That Multiplies

Stuff happens.  If you have a good sized bunch of kids you are nodding right now. Sometimes it helps to know its not just you. <g>  I have revisited Michelle's story of her gallbladder trials and emergency surgeries lately.  Meantime, one of our son's broke his arm (not badly) at football practice.  I thought that meant our schedule would open up some, but now all his school lessons will be oral or with me transcribing.  'Cause why?  Cause this isn't heaven folks.  We work now and rest later.  And it helps me a LOT to read about strong women doing just that with a good attitude.  Keep fighting the good fight. <g> On that note…

Book Basket:

The one book I read this past month was Joyce Swann's homeschooling memoir.  I was so excited when it arrived.  It might just be my era.  I am guessing younger homeschoolers have no frame of reference here.  Joyce was my homeschool hero though.  She took her ten kids through master's degrees at home by their teen years.  (largely because they worked 3hrs/day and went through summer so she didn't have to reteach concepts each fall)  Every. One. Of. Them.  And she didn't meet another real homeschooler until she had been at it for EIGHT years. 

Their family life, which began rather comfortably, eventually endured longterm unemployment, premature birth, life threatening illness, and her near fatal accident.  It's all found in her book and her daughter's.  They have gotten their share of flack over the years for acceleration, but you have to admire determination in face of daunting odds.  Bottom line, they have ten great kids, a strong marriage, and a good story to tell.  

You can find more of Joyce here and here

apple tree morning(more from sunrise)

Picture inspiration: 

AE_AtFirstGlance(shared from Ali Edwards

He Notices

daisies
Continue On

A woman once fretted over the usefulness of her life.
She feared she was wasting her potential being a devoted wife and mother.

She wondered if the time and energy she invested in her husband and children would make a difference.

At times she got discouraged because so much of what whe did seemed to go unnoticed and unappreciated.

"Is it worh it?" She often wondered. 
"Is there something better that I could be doing with my time?" 

It was during one of these moments of questioning that she heard the still small voice of her heavenly Father speak to her heart.

"You are a wife and mother because that is what I have called you to be. 

Much of what you do is hidden from the public eye.

But I notice.

Most of what you give is done without remuneration.

But I am your reward.

Your husband cannot be the man I have called him to be without your support.

Your influence upon him is greater than you think and more powerful than you will ever know.

I bless him through your service and honor him through your love.

Your children are precious to me.

Even more precious than they are to you.

I have entrusted them to your care to raise for me.

What you invest in them is an offering to me. 

You may never be in the public spotlight,

but your obedience shines as a bright
light before me.

Continue on.

Remember you are MY Servant. 

Do all to please me."

– Roy Lessin via Michelle Duggar, who is blessing me through her latest book. 

You may not feel very successful today.  You may not be able to boast of the perfect marriage.  You may be anxious over one of your children.  You may know all the many ways you and your life fall short of your ideals.  This was never about perfection, but about faithfulness.  It was never about how this looks in the eyes of the world, but about how it looks in the eyes of eternity.  

Continue on.  

"Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling." Phil 2:12

It is easy to be faithful when you appear to be a shining success.  How much more difficult in the apparent absence of that success?  But what is faith, but evidence of things NOT seen?  There is still a God Who notices, Who can work for good.

Continue on, no matter how foolish it seems to the rest of the world.  It matters.

"…let him become a fool that he might become wise.  For the wisdom of the world is foolishness with God." 1 Cor 3:18-19

dachau daisy
(images of my children gathering daisies for me at the Dachau Memorial.  Just struck me at that moment how painfully beautiful that was. A testimony to the triumph of beauty and goodness over evil.) 

 

best of all

geraniums window

 

"Best of all were the mornings and evenings at home.  Laura realized she had never appreciated them until now. There were no sullen silences, no smoldering quarrels, no ugly outbreaks of anger. 

Instead there was work with pleasant talk, there were happy little jokes and evenings of cozy studying and reading, and the music of Pa's fiddle…. How often Laura thought how happy and fortunate she was. Nothing anywhere could be better than being at home with the home folks." 

These Happy Golden Years

 geranium


The Giving Tree

This may well go down as the most unusual twist on our weekly theme's at Snapshots Around the World. ; )    

Our firstborn arrived in Germany on Wednesday morning.  Warms my heart.  Due to paperwork glitches and his college schedule it's been way. too. long.   He is now back in the fold for a time.  We have joked that we have "Annoying Orange – the Colin Edition" going on here. ("Colin! Hey Colin! Colin! Colin!")  

With all this excitement and our travel of days before, I ran late linking up to this week's theme of Tree.  That actually is a fine thing because this tree is far more interesting than those in my yard.  Let me back fill a bit.

I was raised with significant input by my grandmother who was quietly opinionated.  One of the things she felt most certain about was that tattoo's were a bad thing.  She rarely said much about it but usually would offer something softly (ie under her breath, with a smile) about "fools names in fool's places…"   Forever after, whenever the subject came up, someone would repeat this refrain, which was echoing in our heads anyway.  

When my own sons came of age we had many discussions about this. I confidently tossed out the same self-assured comments my Gram had made and my sons were…..unimpressed.  They offered back theological and medical defenses.  I returned with very compelling arguments such as "I MADE that skin!" <g>  

Truth is though Colin doesn't have a rebellious bone in his body.  He waited until he was out of the house and had discussed it extensively with us.  But this was one thing he really felt strongly about and in the end he made his own decisions, which we support. After all, this is about growing strong, independent adults rather than perpetual children who are afraid to voice their opinions if they differ from our own. We know they can be respectful and parent-honoring without being little copies of us. 

Now that it's all said and done – and not just one son but two so far - I admit their choices surprised me.  They reflect their beliefs and their passions.  Zach chose his favorite motto in latin and the biblical definition of his name.  Colin has, ahem, a lot of them, all of which are deeply symbolic of his faith and life. One of the most interesting is from a favorite childhood book, The Giving Tree.  I admit it was not one of my favorite reads back then and often I found the plot very painful to work through. (they are quite accustomed to Mom pausing during some of our read alouds to collect herself)  But Colin knows all about pain and suffering and offering both freely and peacefully.  He was born with Spina Bifida which has left him with lifelong challenges which he bears with stoic grace. 

When I think of "tree" I will forever now think of this tree…

 tree   

cpu
 tree

 

without hurry or flurry

"If you could once make up your mind in the fear of God never to undertake more work of any sort than you can carry on calmly, quietly, without hurry or flurry, and the instant you feel yourself growing nervous and like one out of breath, would stop and take breath, you would find this simple common-sense rule doing for you what no prayers or tears could every accomplish."

– Stepping Heavenward

Just something from this oh so wonderful book to try, especially during busy seasons.  Many times, it may well be that we are not lacking in virtue so much as exhausted or overcommitted. We do no one any favors that way. 

Gap of Dunoe bridge

the only way out is through

Becca: Does it ever go away? 
Nat:  No, I don't think it does. Not for me, it hasn't – has gone on for eleven years. But it changes though. 
Becca: How? 
Nat:   I don't know… the weight of it, I guess. At some point, it becomes bearable. It turns into something that you can crawl out from under and… carry around like a brick in your pocket. And you… you even forget it, for a while. But then you reach in for whatever reason and – there it is. Oh right, that. Which could be awful – not all the time. It's kinda… 

Nat:  …not that you'd like it exactly, but it's what you've got instead of your son. So, you carry it around. And uh… it doesn't go away. Which is…

Becca: Which is what? 

Nat:   Fine, actually. 

Some thoughts about grief from the movie Rabbit Hole, applicable to many traumas.  

 

Just Being Sure

Mary had always been good.  Sometimes she had been so good Laura could hardly bear it. But now she seemed different. Once Laura asked her about it. 

"You used to try all the time to be good," Laura said. "And you always were good. It made me so mad sometimes I wanted to slap you. But now you are good without even trying."

"I know why you wanted to slap me," Mary said. "It was because I was showing off. I wasn't really wanting to be good.  I was showing off to myself, what a good little girl I was and being vain and proud and deserved to be slapped for it… We are all so desperately wicked and inclined to evil as the sparks fly upwards" said Mary using the bible words. "But that doesn't matter."

"What!" cried Laura.

"I mean I don't believe we ought to think so much about ourselves, about whether we are bad or good." Mary explained….  "I don't know how to say what I mean very well. But it isn't so much thinking as, as just knowing. Just being sure of the goodness of God." 

Everyone knows that God is good. But it seemed to Laura then that Mary must be sure of it in a special way.   "You are sure aren't you?" Laura said. 

"I am sure of it now all the time." Mary answered.

from Little Town on the Prairie

scenes below from another prairie in eastern France

 windmill
village window
cows