Dear friends, many of you know something of the crisis we have faced this month. I am writing here to explain a bit.
Two weeks ago I walked into the kitchen on a sunny morning to make my husband coffee. We sat and talked like we do each morning before work. He left as usual and I woke up the children. All very normal things for what began as a very normal morning.
However, in short order my health deteriorated and I found myself in the ICU with inexplicable pancreatitis. (ie no gallstones, no alcohol use ever, nothing typical) There was initial recovery, however a grave error on the staff's part led to a more dire relapse leaving me in worse shape yet, hence the protracted stay there.
It has been a rough patch so say the least. But I have returned home again and am holding my own at this point. There are problems, but I am grateful. I am here, for starters. My father, who coincidentally died at this same age of an eerily similar episode, was not so lucky. The children have stayed the course at home in my absence. The big kids rallied. They sweetly and capably helped the house routine to chug along and the littles have been well cared for and happily busy every day. (Montessori ipad apps, I heart you) Friends have reached out from across town and across the ocean and have assured us of fervent prayers.
Mostly I am grateful for this man who took off work to juggle the children's schedules and keep things afloat here. He bought groceries, put in hair bows, talked with big kids who worried. Every day he made his way up to the hospital, climbed into that bed next to me, carefully wrapped up my broken body and told me over and over that I was still beautiful – though I tell you with certainty I was not that. He advocated for me with doctors and met every need of mine he possibly could with great gentleness.
We don't really know what the long term prognosis is. But that 'longterm' is still an option is enough today. We are home together. We will do this.
Thank you for your concern and the love sent this way. Please understand my correspondence is very limited at the moment, but I read and treasure your mail. It has helped me through some trying hours. You bless me.
I will be back when I can.